I was born with a nice childhood from 1 yr to abt 4yrs,
but a nigthmare after tat.. abused by my mum..
physically or emotionally..
i'll never forget all tat she did to me,
all becoz i was late from school for about 10 minutes..
*imagine tat..
we couldn't get freedom.. so, in order to get it,
we lied sometimes.. well wat to do, i was primary 4 then..
i too want's to get fun from my friend..
when primary 5-6 came, i was even tortured more..
head bang on wall, hair pulled, punched, kicked, slapped..
for god sakes, where's my father..
(*crying)..
sometimes when i see movies about daughters
and father or if Faher's day came,
i would silently cry..
i couldn't tell my mother how i feel, she'll bashed me up..
how i wish, i would have amother whom i can tell my problems to,
whom i can treat as frens..
but when i suggest tat to her,
she said tat it was bullshit and if she were to be
like my fren, i would step her head..
all i wanted was love from her..
but all she do was to
spend time with her boyfren and work..
well i can't argue tat she is always bz with work
coz she will argue back tat we all need money to live in s'pore..
(money isn't everything, please)..
even though you think so..
if not work, she always spend time with her boyfren,
and she complains tt i meet my bf everyday??..
wat about her??
why does she me but not herself..
i pity my adek.. she's going tru the same thing tat i went tru..
*only luckier..
i really pity her
i can take all the beating and all the hurting words..
but all i'm asking is to leave my sis alone..
i know i can't suppot her but atleast show the love to er, not to her boyfren..
i'm just letting out my anger..
*I'm angry...
i can't express myself to her, she'll bash me up if i do..
do you ever wonder why my small sis attitude is different from shasha??
tat's coz, my small sis lack of attention from my mum..
the man above, show me a way to get out of this mess...
i love my mother but i can't tell her coz, she won't believe it..
she'll think it's bullshits!
*toodles..
love yA!